Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Worst few hours of my life

Well at least I had a few days of bliss before a new kind of angst set in. I started spotting a bit on Friday and instead of tapering off like we thought it would, it continued to get worse. The dark brown spots on Friday and Saturday turned into red spots on Sunday, small clots on Monday, and today on my lunch break I was horrified to see two large clots and enough blood to instantly make me panic. Are we losing our baby??? I told my supervisor what had just happened, left the office in a hurry, and somehow managed to make it home through all my tears. By the time I made it home, I was pretty convinced that I was no longer pregnant. Ryan and I headed to Glendale, where I had my blood drawn and then popped my legs up into the familiar stirrups for an internal ultrasound. Dr. Q warned us that since I'm only 5 weeks, it is probably too early to see anything in my uterus and not to freak out about it. He just wanted to see what my ute lining looked like - hoping to see the nice thick lining I had prior to the embryo transfer. But God in His graciousness, surprised us all with a clear view of the amniotic sac and yolk sac (click here to see more on their functions).


I'm still pregnant! :D And apparently I'm also just a bleeder. lol. Dr. Q says that the baby is going to be fine, and we will hopefully be able to see the heartbeat next Friday as originally planned. The bleeding should subside in the coming week. ::huge sigh of relief:: He also said that staying at home will only make me dwell on it and worry, and I have no reason to worry. But I'm still thinking about taking off work tomorrow just to be on the safe side...

There's always something to trust the Lord about isn't there? :) Please continue to pray for us; that the bleeding would taper off, that the baby would keep growing healthy, and that we would continually entrust our anxieties to the Lord. 

8 comments:

  1. Lots of thoughts and prayers to you both. I hope everything continues to go well.

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  2. I'm so glad that everything's ok. Praying for that sweet teeny baby!! =)

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  3. Dear Baby M, you get nice and cozy in your mama's ute! You have about 35 more weeks to go, no more scaring us. Love, Auntie Bran.

    *big* hugs Denay!!!

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  4. Scared us!!! So glad God protected that baby! Love you guys and are continuing to pray!

    Kimi

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  5. Oh hon, I am so sorry you had to go through that scare :( But the ultrasound looks great! Lots of good thoughts going your way for the bleeding to subside. ((hugs))

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  6. Scary! When my sister in law was pregnant with their first child (who they tried for five years to have) she spotted through the entire pregnancy. It was difficult to keep believing that the baby was fine and there was nothing to be concerned about, even though the doctor kept saying this. She carried to term and even had a quick delivery to boot. Funny how He works these things. Continuing to pray for you and that precious baby <3

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  7. I really hope that you read these comments! I did IVF in January. I spotted up until I was about 7 weeks pregnant. I freaked out everytime I would go to the bathroom. I called my husband and my mom crying almost everyday thinking I was loosing the baby. I hope that you are able to remain calm! I am currently 13w4d! Praise God! I will continue to pray for you, your husband and your little baby :)

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  8. Saying a prayer for you that baby continues to grow nice and healthy & that God calms your anxieties! I'm a new reader here & I'm wishing you the best.

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