Monday, May 13, 2013

Winded

Sorry that it's been a while since I've posted. Sorrier still that the post I finally wrote is a total downer. Keepin it real folks, keepin it real. lol.

Well, I made it through Mother's Day by the skin of my teeth. Leading up to Sunday I set it in my mind that it was going to be a positive day, because I am a daughter and I have an incredible mom and mother in law to celebrate with. It was not going to be about me and my lack of motherhood. But it was no use. A few reminders throughout the day, and I was a hot mess. Still kind of am. Maybe next year I'll actually be happy and won't have to grit through it...

I might not have any physical strength whatsoever. lol. But I've always tried to push myself to be strong inside and have the heart of a fighter. Getting back up and trying again, blow after blow after blow. But I have to be honest guys - I feel winded. I'm so tired of this continued heartache and waiting. I had a tearful prayer time this morning, just asking God to remember me as He remembered Rebekah (Gen. 25:21), Rachel (Gen. 30:22), Hannah (1 Sam. 1:19-20), and Elizabeth (Luke 1:12). But even more than that, I asked Him to give me endurance. I know that I am in a particularly discouraged season right now, and forgive me if I sound dramatic, but I just don't know how much more of this I can take. I need the Lord's sustaining grace. And a vacation. And apparently a Snuggie, because these people seem pretty happy and content with life-


lol. Sorry, I just had to throw a little comic relief in there. ;) Thanks in advance for any prayers coming our way. God is good, and He is going to see us through. <3