Sunday, May 13, 2012

Switching gears

Ryan and I have been doing a lot of thinking and talking over the last couple weeks, and we have come to a decision on our next step. I kept catching myself in theses mental arguments, trying to convince myself that we should do IVF again. "Don't you want to have a cute baby belly? Don't you want to see ultrasounds of a precious miracle growing inside you? A few more months of treatment won't kill you. Suck it up, the injections and transfers aren't that bad!" At some point last weekend, something inside of me clicked. I realized that it's ok if I simply don't want to do IVF again. Stopping treatment does not make me a weak person, and it does not mean that I'm "giving up". It doesn't mean that we'll never do it again either. It just means that right now, at this point in our lives, we're ready to walk down a different road to get to the same destination - parenthood. Coming to that realization was so incredibly liberating! I feel like a huge amount of pressure (which I put on myself) has been lifted from my shoulders. So yes dear friends, we are switching gears and are oh so happy about it. :) Adoption here we come! woohoo!! :)



7 comments:

  1. Gaaah! I'm so excited for you two! I can't wait to continue on this journey with you, going in a new direction, and I can't wait to meet baby Miller. I know God will continue to work through you :)

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  2. Wow! Congrats on being in such a great place to recognize where you are - that's fantastic!

    All the best :)

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  3. So excited to hear this! It still is amazing to be reminded of our adoption into God's family. I don't deserve it!

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  4. SO excited for you guys!!! So happy you feel liberated from this choice!!

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  5. I am very excited for you guys as you begin this journey :) Sharing God's love with a child in need is such an amazing calling! I will look forward to your progress updates on the entire adoption process!

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  6. Love to you both! This won't be easy either but God has a plan to enlarge your family and I look forward to how God is going to bless you with the desire of your heart.

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