Thursday, March 28, 2013

Revamping the Nest

While we wait for another match, we are keeping busy! Our kitchen looked like this last week. :)
The new countertops are in now, and the backsplash is getting set up right this very moment, thanks to our buddies at Quandary Construction. :) New chandeliers were hung over the weekend (thanks Daddy!), and can I just say that picking light bulbs is a much more daunting task then it should be! There are way too many options! FYI, the "Natural Daylight" bulb color is anything but natural. We felt like we were on the moon. Who would want florescent blue lighting in their home? It's beyond me. lol. Anyway, next week we have workers coming to rip apart our tile, paint the main part of the house, and install our new laminate wood flooring. There's gonna be a whole new look in the Miller home, and we are soooooo excited about it! It's nice to have big projects going on to keep us occupied during this waiting period. Especially since we wouldn't have been able to do all of this if we had a newborn in the house, so we're making the most of our current child-free status. :) I'll post some before and after pictures once it's all done. :)

Thursday, March 14, 2013

What a Tease

Last week I got a call from the birthmother social worker at our agency. She had just gotten off the phone with a new birthmom who is due at the end of this month - baby girl, half white, half hispanic, supportive family holding her hand through this process. Of course, I calmly told her that, yes, we would like our profile to be shown to this woman. Then Ryan and I spazzed. :)
It just seemed too perfect. Could this be the one that God has for us?? Is this why the previous match fell through? So that we would be available for this new baby?? I was in a constant state of prayer all weekend. I woke up in the middle of the night thinking about it, and asking the Lord to make us this baby's parents. The birthmom originally looked at nine profiles, and then narrowed those down to four. We made the first cut! My heart soared with hope - this is our big break! But Tuesday afternoon I received word that she picked a different family. ::head desk::
What a tease. It hit me pretty hard. It was far less certain that our actual match, but Ryan is white, I'm hispanic, and we have EVERYTHING we need for a baby girl ready to go. It just seemed like such an obvious fit. But my wonderful husband reminded me in between our tears that God's plan is bigger and more perfect than what we are able to perceive. I'm hanging on to that truth. <3

Monday, March 11, 2013

An Adoption Story

The video below happened to be in my YouTube feed last night. It is the best video I've seen on domestic infant adoption. Ryan and I were so blessed that I wanted to share it with you as well. Praying that God provides this beautiful experience for us soon!

Thursday, March 7, 2013

How We're Doing...

Below is a video update on how we're doing. I thought about writing it out and then I figured it would be too long and no one would read it. lol. I had a ton of thoughts, so I hope it's understandable and not too scattered. :)

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Shower Gifts

As I stare at the gift list from our shower and stack of Thank You cards, I'm not even sure what words to write now that the match has failed. Sometimes adoptive parents choose to wait until after the placement to have a shower, just in case it falls through. Our match seemed to be pretty strong when the plans were made, and I thought it would be nice to have the time to get things organized before the baby came. It didn't quite work out the way I expected. In any case, Ryan and I are so thankful to each and every person who attended our shower. We are so blessed to have a nursery packed with clothes and every baby essential we could possibly want. I pray that we will be able to use it all very soon. I hope that you will understand and accept this blog post as the means of showing our gratitude. Much love to all of you!

Saturday, March 2, 2013

Failed Match

Our match left just as quickly as it came. We received a call from our social worker last night, and Q has decided that she wants to parent her baby. This is her right and it always has been. Her role has been expectant mom with the intention of placing her baby for adoption with us. Though we were hopeful, Ryan and I knew going into this that it wasn't a done deal until the papers were signed after the birth. We also knew that Q had been going back and forth on this over the last couple of weeks. We are very thankful that she came to this conclusion before we met the baby at the hospital. Q has her reasons, and we don't harbor any bitter feelings toward her. I trust that you, as our supporters, will respect her decision as well. 

Ryan and I are doing ok. Though, this is a bit of a set back in our plans, it is still God's Plan A. We are not depressed and we do not feel like we are at square one all over again. There will be another birthmom and another baby. This particular one was not for us. We know that we are meant to be parents to one special little soul, and she is not in Q's belly after all. God is still good and in control. We will continue to wait on Him. Please keep us in your prayers. <3