Monitoring appointment on Friday went fairly well. My ute lining is supposed to be measuring at a minimum of 8, and mine is 10 so we're looking good there. Estrodiol levels are supposed to be at least 400, and mine is low at 231. Dr. Q still thinks it's ok to do the transfer on Friday since the levels will continue to build before then. I was tempted to ask if we can do another round of bloodwork prior to the transfer just to be sure, but I'm over being an anal patient. I'm just going with it. lol
On the emotional / spiritual front, I've struggled the last few weeks with asking God for the success of this final in vitro cycle. I know that He is the giver of life, but do not have faith that He will choose to do so, therefore I have neglected to ask Him. I was reading through Genesis a few days ago and found it interesting that the three fathers of the nation of Israel - Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob - all had infertility issues in their marriages. I have read their stories individually before, but I guess I hadn't put them together until just this last week. In Genesis 18, Sarah is told that she is going to have a son, despite being an old infertile woman. Sarah laughs. Judging by God's response, it doesn't seem to be a giddy, excited giggle, but the kind of laugh that says "that's the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard." He shuts her up pretty quick in verse 14 by saying, "Is anything too hard for the Lord?". ::queue conviction:: I need to pray for this embryo, with faith that God is able to give me the desire of my heart. His answer may be "not yet", and that will be hard, but I need to be dependent on Him through the heartache, instead of trying to avoid the heartache by pretending that He's not there. Because really, that's just a godless attitude to have.
Ryan and I have decided to dedicate tomorrow to prayer. You're welcome to join us if you'd like; the more the merrier! :)
"Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you."
1 Thess 5:16-18