Sunday, April 15, 2012


First of all, I just want to thank every single person who has emailed, commented, left messages, and/or texted. I have not responded to everyone individually, but please know that each note was very much appreciated. <3

Thursday morning I realized that my progesterone suppositories were pretty much pointless because of the yet increased bloodflow I was experiencing. Dr. Q wanted to put me on injectable progesterone instead, but before I started stabbing my butt, I asked if we could do another ultrasound just to make sure that the baby was still fine. When Dr. Q walked into the room, he immediately looked concerned that I was still bleeding heavily. The ultrasound wand went in, and there was nothing on the screen. Nothing. He whispered "shoot" and got a glossy look in his eyes. 

Ryan and I got home and, after lots of sobbing, quickly decided that we really didn't want to stay home. We hopped on Travelocity for maybe ten minutes, booked a hotel stay in San Diego, and hit the road. Seriously, our time away could not have been better. The hotel, actually ended up being a beautiful resort right on the bay in Coronado. We grieved, we relaxed, we caught our breath, and genuinely had a great time. This has been the most awful experience ever, but I think the worst of it is over. God has blessed me with  a wonderful husband, and we're going to be ok. :]


  1. I'm glad that you guys were able to get away together. It helps to be able to take time to grieve. Love you guys and am praying for you.

  2. I'm so glad you guys took some time to grieve and relax away from everything. I love you and I'm continue to pray with you <3

  3. You guys are such great couple. So glad you are doing ok in a really really lousy situation. I love your positivity!

  4. I'm sorry to hear about your loss. I'm glad you were able to get away and relax. Hang in there. And prayers coming your way.

  5. Denay this absolutely broke my heart reading this and made me cry. I will never understand it. You are a trooper and one strong woman. You have amazing strength. Lots of t&p to you and your husband.